Fat can bite me!

Today's food:

100 calorie Granola bar= 2 points
Healthy homemade bean burritos= 5 points
1/4c spanish rice=1 point
2c macaroni and cheese=10 points
2 southbeach cookies= 2 points
1c skim milk= 2 points

22 total points, no activity points

Not bad...I know I can have flex points but I didn't need them today...I wasn't super hungry..until now. So I guess I better go to bed.

Well, today has been a good one. First of all, it was mine and Matt's 2 year anniversary, and we had a big day planned. We had planned to go to lunch at Harbor View Cafe, then to a movie, then to Outback, so I knew it was going to be a superbad eating day, but I was prepared cause I have been really good this week. (As a side note, before we went to eat, he proposed!!!! And I said yes, so I am going to be Mrs. Wicks!) Well, when we got to Harbor View, it was closed so we drove almost an hour to this place that is supposed to be good, and it was closed. So finally, we went to a Mexican place that is really good that I have been to a few times. Then we decided to kill some time so I dropped in Big Lots cause my mom always harrasses me about how I need to go there and look for healthy food cause it is cheap. Well, I am glad I did! They had Kashi cereal (in the huge box) and oatmeal (also a huge box) for $1.99 each, Pilates videos for $3 each, Slimfast optima and South Beach Meal Replacement bars for $.40 each, and Whole Wheat Pasta for $1! It was exciting! So, after we ran a bunch of errands, we went to see a movie, then to eat, but when we got to Outback it was closed!!!!! I was so decent with my eating today cause I knew I couldn't resist the cheese fries, but I didn't even get to have them. Oh well...maybe later..It can't ruin my day!!!!!

Today's food choices:


Brunch - Healthy PBJ with only half serving of PB = 3.5
1 serving of FF Pringles = 1

Snack - Quaker 100 calorie granola bar = 2

Snack 2 - taco soup and corn = 1.5

Dinner - Applebees confetti chicken (this was good enough to deal with but I really had to eat every bit of it to satisfy me and I was still hungry looking at everybody's mashed potatoes)=7
2 bites of Matt's mashed potatoes = 1...these weren't big bites

Snack 3 - Edy's Grand Light Ice cream with FF cool whip = 3
Wheat things sundried tomato and basil = 3

Total points used 22. Sadly, tomorrow is the anniversary which means going out to eat TWICE. I am going to do my best to not go nuts at both meals...also there will be the movies where the popcorn will taunt me! Urghh! Somebody please invent 0 point buttered movie popcorn in a bucket. Thanks!

Well, I am a happy girl today because I got the job at MAC! I was really proud earlier because I was doing really well, and even though I went to Wendy's I only got a Jr. Bacon Cheeseburger (that was plain and only had one piece of bacon on it cut in half) and an unsweet tea with sweet n low. Also, I was glad that I didn't gorge myself in celebration, and I wasn't even sad that I couldn't. I didn't even flinch as Matt got a fresceta sandwhich, fries, a coke, a frosty, and chicken nuggets. Of course he didn't finish it all, but the fries would have usually got me! I had only had a 3 point slimfast optima today before the burger which was about 7 points since I didn't have mayo on it, and I made a decent 6-7 point dinner (a huge mexican pizza made of all the healthy-ness). Then things went downhill. I was dying for some of the light french silk ice cream I bought, so I had probably a cup of it plus two hersheys minis. It could have been worse and I have barely even eaten all 22 points everyday, so I won't cry about it, but I was hoping to do perfectly for at least a week to see if I should stick to the regular plan or do the Wendie plan. I know I have flex points, but I have been trying not to use them at all, and then have one day I eat just whatever cause hopefully it will balance out. Maybe not but I want to play with the system a little and see what works best without me having to give up ever eating a "bad" meal again. Maybe one day I won't want to. It is getting easier.

Karen, I am jealous of your losing! Please call me tomorrow!

I had a bad day...not horrible, but not great. I could have done better. I need to work on willpower. I ate over my points, but I guess I exercised at least. I ate:

1 organic burrito - 4
21 wheat thins - 4.5 (not actually this many but rounded up)
Turkey Pepperoni - 2
Grilled Chicken - 2
Grean Beans - 0
Fudge Shop Right Bites - 2
Red Beans (from the can)- 2 (2 servings)
Brown Rice - 4 (1 and 1/2 servings or so)
3 reduced fat chips ahoy - 3
1/2c of skim milk - 1
1 serving of lays regular chips - 3

I could have not eaten the lays...I had a lapse of judgement. It was really bad.

So I had a total of 27.5 points and I did 1 point of activity. I was going to do more and now I wish I had.
And my stomach hurts!

I hate when I wake up before like 11 on my days off of school. I really don't want to start the eating thing so early. I just saw a girl who started at 160 and is down to 133 and she looks awesome and it is so inspiring cause I want to be 135 and I could not imagine what that would be like. Anyway, I did really well yesterday:

1 can of old fashioned vegetable soup - 3
21 wheat thins-4.5
1 baked potato - 1.5 (ha! I will count the halves and no one will stop me..except the scale)
bacon bits- 1, cheese - 2, light sour cream - 1, butter- 1.5 = 7 points total for the baked potato
Grilled chicken - 2
1 reduced fat cookie - 1
1 piece of wheat toast w/ FF cheese - 2
1 cup of FF milk - 1 (which I didn't finish but took the whole point anyway. where is my gold star?)

and I danced as hard as I could for about 30 minutes or so, so I figured that was worth a point. Who likes the way that I will probably not lose weight cause I am making my own activity calculator!?

So for the totals:

Total points eaten: 20.5
Activity Points:1

Ok. So I weighed this morning and the scale did say 157 but who even knows if that is right. That would mean I have lost like 5 or 6 pounds just since Wednesday. That is not even 4 whole days, so it is probably just my period or water weight or something weird. Especially since my stomach is huge right now. I hate periods. It is ruining my whole day. Also, I had a splurge day today because I said I was going to and I went a little overboard but I am not too upset because I still have about a week to meet my short term goal and I am not too horribly far from it. I had today:

1/2 serving cantaloupe - .5 (I have been eating this a lot lately)
South Beach Harvest Crust Pizza - 5
Right Bites Cookies -2
Grilled Hamburger with fat free cheese, light mayo and mustard on bun - Probably about 8 points
marble slab ice cream in chocolate covered shell with the entire world mixed in....4535353853 points
A handful of Robin's eggs candies - 48389 points
A handful of Lays Sour Cream and onion chips - let's stop here with the adding
Tropicana Pink lemonade

That is a little ridiculous but still probably less than I would normally eat if I was having a splurge day. The day started out well cause I forgot I was going to have a splurge day and I ate like a real person.

I just want to stop having love handles more than anything. I am seriously depressed and it is probably mostly because of the hormones and insanity that come along with periods but I am dying because Matt went to a party without me because I could not find anything to wear that I was comfortable in. How do people that weigh like 400 pounds feel comfortable ever...I just can't. I know it is stupid but I feel like my stomach is so heavy I can't breathe sometimes and like I constantly have to try to tuck in fat here or there and I am tired of it...So I will be working that plan and working as hard as I can tomorrow.

Sorry for the gay title...it just seemed right! Anyway, I am proud of myself today! I was tempted about a million times but I didn't screw up yet. I had:

2 South Beach Cookies - 2
1 Sugar Free Oatmeal - 2
1 Organic Burrito - 3
1 packet of peanut butter crackers - 4
1 serving of Cantaloupe - 1
1 Fetuccini Alfredo Lean Cuisine - 6
1 bag 94% fat free popcorn - 4
1 WW sundae cone -2

I walked up and down the street by the school for makeup hours so I got 1 activity point...and I ate 23 points so I total 22 today! Yay! I am wondering if I will see any difference when I weigh...I think that will be tomorrow and then next week I will weigh on Friday so Karen and I can weigh in on the same day so it won't kill me when she knows her weight loss and I don't. My short term goal is to be 155 by April 13th...that is the release of Sweetie Cake at MAC so I will reward myself with makeup!!! As if I would not do that anyway! I will also reward myself with poorness! Please somebody make me go to sleep!!!!

I made the best most filling dinner ever! It sounded/looked not great, but it sooo helped me with my Mexican cravings and I stopped feeling like the hunger beast was going to get me. It was 1/2c Kunner's Black beans (these are just seasoned with cumin and chili spices but are freaking great),1/4c reduced fat mexican blend cheese, 3 boiled boneless skinless chicken breast strips, a sprinkle of freeze-dried chives,Mexican style Rotel tomatoes with cilantro, and some shredded lettuce! It was like getting to have all the stuff that comes on your plate with your entree at Toucan's including the salsa! I died! I couldn't even finish it and it was only 5 points total!!!!! I will eat this a lot! How do you post to a community?? It confuses me. I am also about to eat my WW sundae cone for 2 points for a total of exactly 22 points today! I added my calories just to see how close the points are to calories I should eat and I only ate 1085 before my sundae cone! That is so much less than I thought I was allowed to, but its ok! That's all.

Today I thought I might die of hungry...I think cause I started my period. Anyway, I have had:

1 quaker granola breakfast bar- 2
1 banana - 1
1 sandwich with natures own wheat bread(2slices) - 2, Fat Free cheese single - 1, Light mayo-1, lettuce and mustard-0 = 4
1 packet of right bite cookies -2
1/2cup of zatarain's red beans and rice - 1.5
1 serving of cantaloupe- 1
1 quesadilla (with carb chopper tortilla and reduced fat mexican blend cheese) folded in half- 3

So I have 7.5 points left and I will take full advantage of those....I just don't know how quite yet. I want an ice cream but they are 4 points!!!!! I want more than 3.5 worth of real food.

I bought a really cute little hardcover notebook for my purse today from Walgreens for $1.00! I can keep track of my points in it, and it was from the Jessica Simpson dessert line, which nobody cared much about so it was on sale and is cute! It is white with a bunch of little pink polka dots and a gumball machine with pink and green gumballs....ok...it is sounding really gay...but it is NOT!

Also at walgreens I found pure authentic Hoodia, and I really want some!!!!!! It is only 39.99 but I am not that rich...it pisses me off. I am tired of always being a hungry beast!!

Off to dye my hair black again!